Trapped - i don't know what to do

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by meeko1004, Jun 7, 2011.

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  1. meeko1004

    meeko1004 Well-Known Member

    I don't really know what to write.

    I don't want to do any of this anymore. I'm tired and I want out.

    I'm terrified. all the time I'm scared - and most of the time I don't even know what of.
    I feel alone. My family is the only thing in the world that can make me feel like a semblance of the person I used to be. But I'm graduating college, and am supposedly supposed to become an independent, responsible grown up.

    I don't know to go on. I can't see anything up ahead. I don't know how to make plans, look for jobs, or do anything when I care less and less everyday. I just don't want to do this anymore.

    Honestly, if death were an option, I think I'd feel a lot more relieved knowing there was a stop button.
    But the fact that I would never ever do that to my family - I'm stuck between nothing and a life that I don't want anymore.

    I don't know how to reboot. I don't understand how people expect me to move on with my life, to make plans, and to work when I'm so done.

    I don't think I can handle this much longer.... honestly...
  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Hi M...sounds like you are taking on way too much at a time...about getting a job and planning for the future...there are many counselors who specialize in this and maybe someone can help you set up a task list so that you have some structure...structure usually helps me feel less afraid...congrad on graduating college and see how you can break all that up into smaller steps...J
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