I don't really know what to write.
I don't want to do any of this anymore. I'm tired and I want out.
I'm terrified. all the time I'm scared - and most of the time I don't even know what of.
I feel alone. My family is the only thing in the world that can make me feel like a semblance of the person I used to be. But I'm graduating college, and am supposedly supposed to become an independent, responsible grown up.
I don't know to go on. I can't see anything up ahead. I don't know how to make plans, look for jobs, or do anything when I care less and less everyday. I just don't want to do this anymore.
Honestly, if death were an option, I think I'd feel a lot more relieved knowing there was a stop button.
But the fact that I would never ever do that to my family - I'm stuck between nothing and a life that I don't want anymore.
I don't know how to reboot. I don't understand how people expect me to move on with my life, to make plans, and to work when I'm so done.
I don't think I can handle this much longer.... honestly...
I don't want to do any of this anymore. I'm tired and I want out.
I'm terrified. all the time I'm scared - and most of the time I don't even know what of.
I feel alone. My family is the only thing in the world that can make me feel like a semblance of the person I used to be. But I'm graduating college, and am supposedly supposed to become an independent, responsible grown up.
I don't know to go on. I can't see anything up ahead. I don't know how to make plans, look for jobs, or do anything when I care less and less everyday. I just don't want to do this anymore.
Honestly, if death were an option, I think I'd feel a lot more relieved knowing there was a stop button.
But the fact that I would never ever do that to my family - I'm stuck between nothing and a life that I don't want anymore.
I don't know how to reboot. I don't understand how people expect me to move on with my life, to make plans, and to work when I'm so done.
I don't think I can handle this much longer.... honestly...