I need help! I dont know if this counts as abuse but its making me go crazy and I need to get out.
As you might have guessed from my username I am 14. I will tell you all about whatb happened today and as you read it know that this sort of situation happens on a fairly regular basis in my house:
SORRY FOR THE LENGTH BUT PLEASE READ IT IF YOU CAN <3
I was cleaning my bedroom and my mom got pissed at me. She said i need to clean the other rooms not my own. So i did and i was also texting my guidance counsellor from school. She has been my lifesaver helping me with all my anxiety this year...so I was texting her and my mom got livid. She came in and ripped my phone away. She said that my phone is hers until i am 18 and she can do whatever she wants with it. She took it cuz i wasnt cleaning fast enough. Then she wanted me to do the dishes so I asked if i cud wear her dish washing gloves because i have emetophobia and a germ phobia. She said no and if i dont start washing them right now she would shove my hands in disgusting stuff, make my summer miserable, etc. Then she whacked mke in the back really hard and I fell over. Later she ripped off one of my fake nails that i had got for my 8th grade semi dance. she sid i was lucky she didnt rip them all off. and she kept hitting my sister. etc etc etc. that sort of stuff happened for a couple of hour today. now i am hiding in my room.
It happens a lot. but its confusing because she loves me and she doesnt always act like that. I am so confused. I feel trapped i dont know what to do. Please help! Is this abuse? What do i do? and why do i always cause these bad things to happen i ruin everything!
As you might have guessed from my username I am 14. I will tell you all about whatb happened today and as you read it know that this sort of situation happens on a fairly regular basis in my house:
SORRY FOR THE LENGTH BUT PLEASE READ IT IF YOU CAN <3
I was cleaning my bedroom and my mom got pissed at me. She said i need to clean the other rooms not my own. So i did and i was also texting my guidance counsellor from school. She has been my lifesaver helping me with all my anxiety this year...so I was texting her and my mom got livid. She came in and ripped my phone away. She said that my phone is hers until i am 18 and she can do whatever she wants with it. She took it cuz i wasnt cleaning fast enough. Then she wanted me to do the dishes so I asked if i cud wear her dish washing gloves because i have emetophobia and a germ phobia. She said no and if i dont start washing them right now she would shove my hands in disgusting stuff, make my summer miserable, etc. Then she whacked mke in the back really hard and I fell over. Later she ripped off one of my fake nails that i had got for my 8th grade semi dance. she sid i was lucky she didnt rip them all off. and she kept hitting my sister. etc etc etc. that sort of stuff happened for a couple of hour today. now i am hiding in my room.
It happens a lot. but its confusing because she loves me and she doesnt always act like that. I am so confused. I feel trapped i dont know what to do. Please help! Is this abuse? What do i do? and why do i always cause these bad things to happen i ruin everything!