I was born a female but identify as male. I don't feel like I can come out as male to everybody since I live in a country where the rates of violence against transgender people are really high. It is really not safe and there is no-one to whom I can talk about this. There are no groups or therapists that specialize in transgender issues around me, and going somewhere else now would be too expensive. Every single day I just want to die since I feel trapped twice.. first of all, trapped in a female body. Second, trapped in such a backwards society without the possibility of going away or moving abroad fast enough. Every single day is unbearable and there is nothing I can do. Every time someone uses my female given name or female pronouns is like the last drop. I feel like I can't stand this much longer.