I feel so lost in this world, just like i dont belong here. i have no friends, no confidence, no self esteem, and dont leave my home. i know i need help but how can i get help without leaving my home? a neighbour of mine recently committed suicide and i got this insane feeling of jealousy, i wanted to be gone too. i worry consantly everyday until the point of physical sickness, i cant eat too. i feel im losing my mind .what shall i do? btw im 18.