So much has been happening in the past several months. Long story short, marital issues have been messing with my mental state. I have a long history of depression and severe anxiety and I feel so triggered especially right now. I wanted to kill myself earlier this evening, and so I cut my wrists while on the phone with my husband (not enough to do serious damage i guess as i am still here) and my husband told me he didn't care if i died and i could die right at that moment and he wouldn't care. In fact he would be happy. i feel so tired, but i don't want to go to sleep. when i sleep i dream and i want it to stop. i want the pain to stop, i want the sadness to stop. i want to get away from the relationship but i don't want to have to deal with the pain that comes with it...hence wanting to die. the bleeding is under control, but this is not the first time i have made attempts. most of the time they are half hearted (cutting the wrist, but not deep enough, taking pills but not taking enough). i want to go to a psychiatric center, but when i try to make the call i'm too scared to hit the send button. i just don't know what to do anymore...i just want to forget everything/just not feel anymore.