I am quickly approaching my anniversary of my trauma on Wednesday the 20th. My PTSD is one thing but the depression is another. I am not sure that I can go through another anniversary. Especially since my depression is not responding to any of the prescribed medications. I admit that I have a plan and the means with which to carry it out. I know that its wrong and that I need an intervention. I am supposed to see my therapist on Tuesday but I am not going to show up because I am going to be somewhere else. I am tired. I am lost. I am numb, and I no longer care. I know that these are not reasons to jump from that cliff but there is so much more to my story and I would just like to think of it as one horrible ass nightmare that never happened. But the PTSD won't let that happen. I have never missed any of my appointments in two years. Its time to miss it now.