someone hurt me and then I hurt someone else...not in the same way....no physically but nonetheless hurt. imcannot stop thinking about It...unless I take a benzo...so as I have said a million times here, unless an equivalent drug is found for me, I will just pray not to wake up...that’s the only solution as suicide is really not an option...it will destroy my family.,..even though I would be gone, I cannot do that to them....they would be destroyed.
Trauma caused me to hurt others
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yes you do keep singing the same song and you will until you change the lyrics. try to get help for your past trauma. i know you don't want to reveal your trauma here in the forums. if you want you can use my inbox, what is said there is private and it stays that way. the offer is there. i hope you can find a way to move forward. i also sing the same old song about my pain but it helps to get some comfort....mike...
Hi @Hatingmyselfdaily, I don't know you well but I can understand a little. I was hurt badly by many people, and then it was hard not to hurt them back. I'm sorry you are struggling with the same issues. I'm no expert at all, it took me years to find out though, that benzo's can actually make you feel more depressed. I need them too, since I've been using them regularly for years, without them I'd be really anxious without sleep. Do you want to try antidepressants or are you? I hope you forgive yourself, you did the best you could at the time this happened. I have to learn to forgive myself as well. best wishes to you!
yes you do keep singing the same song and you will until you change the lyrics. try to get help for your past trauma. i know you don't want to reveal your trauma here in the forums. if you want you can use my inbox, what is said there is private and it stays that way. the offer is there. i hope you can find a way to move forward. i also sing the same old song about my pain but it helps to get some comfort....mike...
Well I'm not sure, we aren't supposed to suggest or promote medication, but i'm going to suggest/ask if you've tried something like quetiapine or it's also called seroquel. I'm not a med promoter, I actually wish I could go back and manage life without any medication. But that is one med that will help you sleep, and quiets the mind somewhat, only my experience that I can relate to you.
You must forgive yourself. Whatever it is cant be changed, it is in the past. You have to let it go for your own sanity, for yourself to be able to live in peace. Look at humanities history, the cruelty, tortures etc. and horrible people we know of now and major crimes being committed daily..... do you think you deserve that much punishment for a mistake in the past as these other humans do? I don't think you do. You need to be kind to yourself now. I don't know if we can recommend people that teach, but I'll take my chances. Eckhart Tolle is on youtube. You could type in Eckhart Tolle "the end of suffering." He has helped me, it may not be something you like but try his videos and see what might happen. best to you always
You must forgive yourself. Whatever it is cant be changed, it is in the past. You have to let it go for your own sanity, for yourself to be able to live in peace. Look at humanities history, the cruelty, tortures etc. and horrible people we know of now and major crimes being committed daily..... do you think you deserve that much punishment for a mistake in the past as these other humans do? I don't think you do. You need to be kind to yourself now. I don't know if we can recommend people that teach, but I'll take my chances. Eckhart Tolle is on youtube. You could type in Eckhart Tolle "the end of suffering." He has helped me, it may not be something you like but try his videos and see what might happen. best to you always
