well today couldnt of started of anyworse, i hadnt had sleep for 2 days straight and the 1st time i actually fell asleep i got a fone call from sum **** from my bank telling me im in debt, well done sherlock! telling me if i dont put any money in the account by monday then theres gonna be a final demand, then court, THEN my ex landlord rang me up demanding i pay him over a grand (long story) and if i dont pay that hes gonna bring it to the courts SO after that fone call i found the sharpest razor blade i cud find and tried to kill myself, i have so many deep cuts on my wrists and arms, yet i didnt bleed to death..WHY i was bleeding for about 10 mins, was feeling very sick and nearly passed out, fuck it im gonna try again 2morrow, in my previous thread i said if 1 more thing bad happened then i will kill myself, and 2 shit things happened to me in 1 day, its WAY to much for me, all i want to do is cry all day and nite, ive asked my parents for support with the bank, they told me to ''go fuck yourself'' just a hug rite now wud make me feel sumwat a lil better, but thats just to much to ask for i want to talk to the only friend i have on msn but it wud DEEEEEPLY upset her and shes going through enough as it is, i dont wanna bring her down with me why do happy ppl who havnt got a worry in the world die in sum freak accident but wen it comes to me i just cant die! why cant i be ina accident, why cant sum1 murder me, why the fuck cant i even bleed to death!!!!! sorry this is 1 big rant, i wont be annoying u lot for much longer, any of u have my email address or fone number u can say ur goodbyes. not like i have any friends anyway WHY CANT I DIE!!!!!!!