Failure even at taking my own life. Failure at every thing. Watched the Terry Pratchett programme the other night and wish I had the money to go to Switzerland. Trouble is they say they only offer the service to people who are of 'sound mind', which probably rules out the suicidal but it shouldn't. Why shouldn't I be able to make a rational decision to end my own life? Feeling suicidal is as distressing and debilitating as any physical condition. I want to put an end to this misery! I can see no future for myself but I'm too scared.