Failure even at taking my own life. Failure at every thing. Watched the Terry Pratchett programme the other night and wish I had the money to go to Switzerland. Trouble is they say they only offer the service to people who are of 'sound mind', which probably rules out the suicidal but it shouldn't. Why shouldn't I be able to make a rational decision to end my own life? Feeling suicidal is as distressing and debilitating as any physical condition. I want to put an end to this misery! I can see no future for myself but I'm too scared.
Hello Fitzy,
I understand that you feel like a failure probably due to several things that occurred in your life.
Suicide is not something that we choose; suicidal thoughts is caused by what happened, the important thing to remember is that whatever happened
it can be dealt with. It might sound easy to say and difficult to get it done, I understand this feeling but believe me it's not as hard as it sounds.
The fact that you "failed" to take your life i actually consider a very positive sign, it means that 1% of you or maybe even more wants you to live - i want you to hold onto this part.
You feel miserable currently, you seem to feel hopeless and helpless.
Consider this small paragraph:
Suicide is not the solution, you may think that by suiciding you will be relieved from pain, relief is a feeling and you need to be alive in order to be able to feel. You will not feel this relief once you take your life.