About a couple/few months ago i agreed to try therapy, but I feel like im only fucking myself up worse over it. I just want to run away when im im there, especially the last two appointments. My T wants to keep my mother in the room, but i just cant let myself open up with her in there. No matter what anyone says i dont trust my mother not to talk about it with SOMEONE. She always does. I dread the appointments because i feel like im trapped, cant get away and suffocating. When she offers the suggestions i find if difficult if not impossible to try to apply them when im at home.... and its frustrating to me because im finally putting the effort into it and i just feel like im sliding backwards. I like my therapist i just dont think im therapy material so to speak. i wish i could make more sense of everything in my head, or be able to express myself better, but im just unable to, and it shows because after these months i feel like she still doesnt understand me.... i dont feel anyone has ever really understood me.