i've had a rough 2 years and till present i've tried to take my life 4 times .. only one time was serios. i took A LOT of pills with alcohol and it ended me in hospital for 9 days but i took a fair amount of pills 3 days before and cut very bad. this was all last february. i've tried 2 more times after that .. none serios but worrying. last feb when i took the pills i was so scared but desperate i did panic and thats why i called for a ambulance which was wise otherwise i'd be dead. it's changed my whole life .. jokes about people comitting suicide trigger flashbacks and urges to cut... i can't even say ' suicide' cos i give my shivers. the nightmares are the worse .. i've had talks about it with my therapist but to no avail. i'm glad that i survived in a sense cos i would not of had a chance of recovery or chance of life.