tried it too many times

Discussion in 'After Effects' started by bella muerte, May 4, 2007.

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  1. bella muerte

    bella muerte Well-Known Member

    i've had a rough 2 years and till present i've tried to take my life 4 times .. only one time was serios.
    i took A LOT of pills with alcohol and it ended me in hospital for 9 days
    but i took a fair amount of pills 3 days before and cut very bad.
    this was all last february.

    i've tried 2 more times after that .. none serios but worrying.
    last feb when i took the pills i was so scared but desperate
    i did panic and thats why i called for a ambulance
    which was wise otherwise i'd be dead.

    it's changed my whole life .. jokes about people comitting suicide trigger flashbacks and urges to cut... i can't even say ' suicide' cos i give my shivers.
    the nightmares are the worse .. i've had talks about it with my therapist but to no avail.

    i'm glad that i survived in a sense cos i would not of had a chance of recovery or chance of life.
  2. TLA

    TLA Antiquitie's Friend

    I say "S word" when I don't want to say 'suicide'.

    I hope many posts don't trigger you if you read in the forums. I am sorry for your hurt but glad like you that you were not successful. I applaud you on continuing to learn more coping skills for yourself.

    Stay safe!
  3. Jackson

    Jackson Guest

    Yeah, I mean it's not like you missed your only chance at death. Might as well stick around a little while longer and see what you can do.
  4. Freddy

    Freddy Guest

    I tried the pill attempt befor. Obviously it didnt work.
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