So to add to all my devastation and such, my mothers best friends son attempted (or committed, did not ask for more details ) and is talking about it. So people are talking about it in a more detailed way. And cant talk to them about me, dont want to be rude and ask not to talk about the member of our family/friends you know. I have been up all night, due to more devastation news, and i was already on the way out of the door to begin with. Last night was the hardest night since the last time i attempted. Please provide suggestions as soon as possible.