I caved in today... I cut and then I kept cutting it's like I couldn't stop, I didn't want to stop... It wasn't enough... I kept going till the blood was pooling on my skin... It's like a lost some control...now I'm thinking what the hell happened, why would I keep going and I have no explanation... It's like I zoned out... Right now I'm considering it again... But I'm afraid I won't stop... I feel like shit, like no one understands..