All I think about is raping somebody. It's controlling me and it's who I am. Girls are too good for me; I'll never have a relationship and I'll never have a serious conversation with a girl. I have an urge for control and sex that I can't ignore and nothing can help it. The thought of her crying while I can do anything I want is a great feeling for me and I have dreams about it. I don't want to ruin somebodies life but every day these same thought continuously run through my head. It's okay I know what you're thinking - He's fucking sick and mental and should go burn in hell. You don't know what it's like to think these thoughts - It's fucking terrible and I need them to stop. I can't talk to anybody about this. I've tried to tell my parents that I want to freaking kill myself every day and I just can't go through with telling them about that so I can't tell them about this.