I feel kind of stupid even posting this but I am curious to know if I am the only one that gets triggered by going to the pdoc appt. I get all sorts of panicky as the time draws closer, and this is one thing that triggers me to cut. I typically will end up cutting the whole week before followed by major cutting the day of. To the point that I sit in the parking lot and cut just so I can make it through the appointment. I know this is stupid. I really have no reaason for this. I just don't know. I have my appointment in 3 hours and it is getting to a critical point for me. I have been trying to keep myself busy here at the computer and have kept all "tools" out of sight. But it does not keep the mind from wandering back to what I want to do.