The session before last I told my therapist I had been raped... she already knew I had been through sexual abuse and stuff... We didn't work on it yet, we're 'saving' it until after I've finished 20 sessions of DBT so I'm better skilled to coping with digging up in this trauma... but yeah... I have PTSD for various reasons, one of them is the rape... and I'm generally afraid of males... (some I class as safe in my head, that's mostly gay men). My therapist says she understands that, after all I've been put through... but it's something I am willing to work on. Logically I know not every man is out to hurt me. Right? I have been at a family dinner today (ugh.) but I was worried a certain family member would be there... a guy who has two addictions, booze and women. And while he has never actually assaulted me; he's been inappropriate, and even, on facebook, stated his intent... (while obviously drunk)... The guy wasn't there, luckily... And tonight I got the final trigger 'hit'. My friends are always posting anti rape stuff on facebook... something I support too, and I often share the stuff too. Tonight one of my friends shared an article about how some men weren't punished for their crimes because of technicalities... that's one thing... but the picture for the article was VERY triggering and graphic to me. It was a woman screaming, and a hand trying to cover her mouth. It's messed me up.