Im not sure what happened but something must have triggered me. i do not really have reasons to do it but the thoughts of suicide keep wandering in my head and i cannot stop them. suicide looks so sweet and nice... the only thing that could give me the peace im looking for. and i know it would be good because when i overdosed a few months ago, peace was really all that i felt. i want to feel that peace again. and i know that i'll never feel it if i stay alive. i dont want to die, i dont want to live, i just want peace.