A year ago i came to this forum for an evening under a different user name. I came to try to vent as a way to try to control my urges to self-harm...By the end of my visit, i was bleeding all over the place. I have been reading posts for about a half hour now, and am flipping out. This sucks so much. I was very suicidal an hour ago, and i am becoming more accutely so. From being here, and reading, and relating...But i can't log off either...my state is going from bad to worse, fast. Is this typical? I am in a mixed state, bipolar episode. No meds. It's not cool. I already hurt myself relatively badly right before i logged on, and came here to get a grip. Oh well!