A year ago i came to this forum for an evening under a different user name. I came to try to vent as a way to try to control my urges to self-harm...By the end of my visit, i was bleeding all over the place. I have been reading posts for about a half hour now, and am flipping out. This sucks so much. I was very suicidal an hour ago, and i am becoming more accutely so. From being here, and reading, and relating...But i can't log off either...my state is going from bad to worse, fast. Is this typical? I am in a mixed state, bipolar episode. No meds. It's not cool. I already hurt myself relatively badly right before i logged on, and came here to get a grip. Oh well!
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Hi Media,
I'm glad that you posted as it sounds like you're in a really confusing and lonely place right now. I can definitely relate to what you say about being drawn to this website, even though it may not be that good for you. I am concerned though, about how much this website seems to be triggering you in to feeling even worse than when you signed in... i know it's really difficult, especially when feeling so down, but i hope you find a way to keep yourself safe while browsing the forum. I understand that the pull to read posts, know you're not alone, etc. is great.. and i hope that on one level it helps to read others' posts.. but please do take care too.. and if you're finding that the forum is too triggering for you, maybe see about keeping in touch with people via PM or messengers such as MSN.. or even chat?
I hear that you're feeling very angry and desperate.. can i ask if there's anything that you're particularly angry about? Are you in therapy? Also, does your GP know about how bad you're feeling? You say that you're not taking any medication... is this something that your GP has suggested you take? Sorry for all the questions (you don't have to answer if you don't want to). I hope that you feel much better very soon.. i also hope that we're able to support you in some way, without you being triggered by the posts here.
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Jenny
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I'm glad that you posted as it sounds like you're in a really confusing and lonely place right now. I can definitely relate to what you say about being drawn to this website, even though it may not be that good for you. I am concerned though, about how much this website seems to be triggering you in to feeling even worse than when you signed in... i know it's really difficult, especially when feeling so down, but i hope you find a way to keep yourself safe while browsing the forum. I understand that the pull to read posts, know you're not alone, etc. is great.. and i hope that on one level it helps to read others' posts.. but please do take care too.. and if you're finding that the forum is too triggering for you, maybe see about keeping in touch with people via PM or messengers such as MSN.. or even chat?
I hear that you're feeling very angry and desperate.. can i ask if there's anything that you're particularly angry about? Are you in therapy? Also, does your GP know about how bad you're feeling? You say that you're not taking any medication... is this something that your GP has suggested you take? Sorry for all the questions (you don't have to answer if you don't want to). I hope that you feel much better very soon.. i also hope that we're able to support you in some way, without you being triggered by the posts here.
:arms:
Jenny
PS You can PM me too
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