I get scared of meeting up with people in person for the few times around. I am scared of being judged. Of the conversation turned to boredom. Of a potential relationship to turn sour. I am more of a listener. I know I think to much. But from virtually every bad experience I have had in the past, how can I not put up a wall? I can I not think the possible negative outcomes. I have tried not to. I have tried to think positive. Not hold any expectations. Not to assume anything. Yet the people I meet, turn out exactly like everyone else in my life. Please I need advise on what to do about this.