Hello guys. I kinda need help on this one because I after everything that happened this weekend, I've been bummed out and I need to let it out somewhere. Maybe I just didn't want to admit it before but now, I really think I'm gay but still, I would also like to think that it is a phase. I'm not sure how my family would take it if they knew I was gay and would not marry to a girl like they expected. I've told some people at work and I think a few of my friends already know just by how I act but they just don't want to say anything before I do. Anyway, the reason I am bummed out is because of two things. You see, I really like some of the guys at work. They're good-looking, really nice, funny; everything I could say would be the perfect guy by my standards. However, the problem is that they either already have a girlfriend or a fiancee. Also, we have different departments and rank in the company. I already told one of those guys about myself and that I like him. I also told him that, even though I really like him, I wouldn't do anything to ruin his relationship with his fiancee out of respect for both of them. Others I haven't told them about myself or my feelings but I also respect their relationships. Even if I did say that I respect their relationships, everytime I see them with their girls, I feel a dull pain and sadness probably because of the thought that I wouldn't be able to have a relationship with any of them anymore. The other problem was that I was supposed to have sort-of date with the guy that I already told about myself. We were planning to have a movie day with just the two of us. I got the things we needed while he planned the schedule so as none from our workplace, his housemate, nor his fiancee would know about our meeting. Anyway, our movie day got postponed because we were not sure about the schedule of his housemate. It was moved to yesterday when his girl was supposed to go to work for overtime. On the day of our movie day, our meeting got cancelled because his girl was on her dayoff and now, he's still thinking on when we can do the movie day. While I'm happy that he still tries to plan out our movie day, I'm just sad that it got cancelled. It's been a while since I last saw him face to face so I was really looking forward to see him again. Also he and his fiancee are moving to another house in the same area but have lots of other tenants. I thought that with more tenants, it would make it harder to schedule our meeting which makes me think that it would never happen anymore and after all the preparations I made. Sorry for the long post but I just needed to get it out of my chest and try to explain everything so that it would make it easier for anyone who wants to give advice to think of one.