I can't stop thinking about it! All the things that make me depressed, the whole reason my life had ruined recently, it keeps reappearing. I don't know if I'm going crazy or if I'm just plain out have bad luck. But its like my mind wants me to die, all it wishes to do is remind me why I hate my life. I'm afriad, because I don't just plan to hurt to myself. I can feel myself getting dangerous, I might even be a danger to those around me. All these things that shouldn't bother... do. All because I was stupid enough to follow some faggots* advice. In the end, I'm just a fucking idiot. I knew better then to chase another girl, considering all I been through. Now months later, I still can't get her out of my head. Knowing the entire time I'm such a pathetic human being. I want to run, run so far and so fast that none of these motherfuckers that torture me by keeping me alive can find me. I just want rest, I just want to shut off all this HURT. I'm sorry, I actually like this community and all I'm doing is wasting Bandwith. *Hey hes my friend, I get to call him a ****** all I want, since he is, and I've decided I can't trust him. I think he's trying to turn me gay.