At the start of this year I started feeling real depressed and suicidal. I don't know why, Its just like.. I didn't want to go on. Like theres nothing left for me in life.. and I couldn't be bothered going on and I turned to self-harm... but then I met this girl.. We connected on so different levels. We understood each other like no other.. but being with her, it made me feel happy.. made me feel like I was worth something to someone. I fell deeply in love with her.. and the feelings were the same till something happened.. and her feelings towards me changed while my feelings got stronger. She started feeling trapped.. she thought I might do something if we broke up and thats the only reason we were going out for so long. We broke up recently.. and its so hard. I honestly can't go on without her.. im only young and I know i`ll meet other girls but I don't want to.. She ment the world to me and now I have nothing.. I got so emotionally attached to this person.. I just cant stop thinking about her. my love. All these depressing and suicidal feelings are coming back.. I feel trapped in this life. I just want to end it.. But I can't put my loved ones through hell.. I just wish there was a way..