I will never trust again. I think it's impossible. I'm 22 and I don't know one man that I trust and I don't think I could ever trust one. Eventually they will show their true colors and hurt you in someway, shape or form. I want to love and be loved but how can you ever love someone you could never trust. There is nothing a man could tell me that would make me trust him. I HATE THEM. i sound like a child i know, but it just hurts so much and all I want to do is cry because this is all my fathers fault and i hate hime so much and i want to know why he did what he did. i didn't ask to be brought to this world. this is so hard to understand for me. i feel like such an adult sometimes and then i have days like this where i want to just curl up and cry. i don't want to hate my life. but i sometimes don't see any hope for a better future and feel like i'm living just because i'm not dead. i'm tired of just going through the motions.