i was in the chatroom for a brief moment and someone was talking about trust. the reality of trust is massive. the question is, what do we do when we cant trust anymore? for many ppl, the idea of trust was washed away when we were children. when we have no trust, it effects more than just our gut feeling. it effects us deep inside. it creates new negative thoughts ... even about ourselves. ppl that should love us, dont show it ... ppl that we thought were our friends ... turned out to just be intrested in themselves and move on without a word. we place care into our hearts and its stolen from us ... through some uncaring person. we dont know how to repair such damage. we tend to feel as if we are not worthy of anyone. everyone is going to be the same ... so we think. we build a wall so high around us to sheild us from harm and to keep our feelings deep inside and to shield us from anyone ... getting to close.. because we already believe ... they will end up leaving anyway, so why waste the time. in time that wall we so carefully built, becomes our life. it becomes what we are. never letting anyone in or letting ourself out to take a chance. the one thing we have to remember is, WE ARE NOT AT FAULT. we cant shield ourself from life forever.. we have to take that step ... baby steps if needed and start moving forward. if we become so isolated behind that wall of ours, soon, we wont ever know whats really on the outside. we become afraid of change ... we become afraid of anything or anyone new. our mind then becomes instilled with the idea that everyone is out to get us or hurt us. that simply isnt true. it is however a FACT. thats what happens. alot of todays general public are self centered. things and ppl just arnt what they used to be. in order to trust again, we at some point have to take a chance. not a big one. just here and there. we also have to try and change our thoughts not only about ourself but about others. i had to. its hard, but it can happen. the worst thing in life is, knowing that we are locked up inside a wall that we created ON OUR OWN. to protect ourself from that which we dont know. we end up, becomming just like that wall. feeling every bit of the emotions that we create behind it. let yourself breath. allow yourself the freedom of knowing that not everyone is going to be worth a shit. also, allow yourself the freedom of knowing that there ARE plenty of good ppl in this world.