Had a bag over my head. It wasn't hot or painful. Maybe I didn't go that far. I was just taking deep and deeper breaths. Panic sets in. I clenced my fists and try to wait it out. Finally, I decided that's enough. Took it off. Look at the clock. It was 6mins. I feel I can stay in there longer if I really try to. I have a plan, a date and time. But I'm scared. I dunno whether I'm scared I will succeed or fail. I'm just scared. It used to be that impossible. I could never muster the courage. Now it didn't seem that far away. I did tried a few times before but my family never find out. I figure if I fail this time, it's major shit!