It doesn't work for long. Feeling particularly unloved and hopeless today. I don't feel as if I have ACCESS to love. You know? I feel that whenever I extend love, I am not loved back. Whenever I open my heart, it is stomped on. Whenever I extend myself in warmth and/or friendship, I am rejected. Is anyone into Tarot? I did a Tarot reading to find out what a couple of people I care about (but who don't care back) would think if I ended my life. And the cards told me that they seriously wouldn't care much. Either now or in the future.