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Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by ahjo, Feb 8, 2011.

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  1. ahjo

    ahjo Active Member

    I think bout death all the time. I wish I wasn't here anymore. I just want to finish my worthless life. There is not point to stay here. And the worst thing is that I'm too weak to kill myself. I tried to overdose some pills and drugs. I've cut myself but just to pour out my anger. I'd love to end myself! I'd love to!
     
  2. ZombiePringle

    ZombiePringle Forum Buddy and Antiquities Friend

    Maybe it would help to talk about why you feel this way? There is plenty of people here willing to listen if you need to vent or talk. Feel free to PM me if you want.
     
  3. ahjo

    ahjo Active Member

    I've been talking about it many times and it really doesn't help.
     
  4. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Therapy does not help you have you tried doing things that you use to enjoy that use to bring you a sense of well being Sometime doing those things will help bring back a passion we once had hugs
     
  5. ahjo

    ahjo Active Member

    I do all the time. Try to do other things. Try to fill up my day. Gym, bowling, pool, ice skating, cinema, going out with friends etc. It doesn't work cos as soon as I'm on my own my head is just full of stupid thoughts. When I try to fall asleep i always imagine how i can die.
     
  6. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Many of us go through that as well alone time is the hardest time to cope but with therapy you gain new coping skills when those times come up The thing is you get through you day and that is good
     
  7. ahjo

    ahjo Active Member

    Is it? It just makes me feel worse and worse every single day. Cos i feel like i do it just cos i need to do it.. cos other people do it and it won't look normal if i wasn't.
     
  8. Acy

    Acy Mama Bear - TLC, Common Sense Staff Member Safety & Support

    Heya, ahjo. I'm sorry you're so low.

    Hm. Yeah, therapy. Therapy can take a while to help. It's not an immediate fix up. And sometimes, as with athletes and dieters, we can reach a plateau in therapy for a while - a time where nothing improves for a little bit of time. Get beyond the plateau and things begin to improve.

    But since we know plateaus can happen, it's important to keep on trying (as you are doing) to get through each day. The efforts you're making to distract yourself show that you are strong (even if you don't especially feel that way right now).

    Your efforts to keep going show that there's more to you than just the sad and bad things.

    Thinking of you. :hug:

    A.
     
  9. ahjo

    ahjo Active Member

    That was really warm, thank you.
    There are many things which makes me feel better. There are also some people which put smile on my face and they keep me alive. But if I start to think bout feature I can't place myself anywhere. I'm afraid that I'll end up really bad. My job is not one of the best. I made the choice to do that cos i was curious and wanted to try but now i really regret it. That's why i don't respect myself. That's why i think I'm worthless. And that's why i won't to live anymore. Cos i've enough and i don't know how to stop it..
     
  10. Dave_N

    Dave_N Banned Member

    Just curious as to what your job is Megan? I'm sure it's not that bad. We all have to do some kind of work to earn a living. :hug:
     
  11. ahjo

    ahjo Active Member

    I'm a working girl.. I do escort.
     
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