I've been out of my career for about two years. I thought I'd just move on and do something new but doing temp/other jobs made me realize just how passionate I was about it. I compared every job to my previous career and would even be embarrassed to tell people that I no longer worked in the industry. Even though the state licenses cost a lot of money I have kept renewing them each year. Long story short I left my job early August and just started working part time job at a Co-Op to pay bills in the meantime. I have been looking for jobs but find myself hesitant to apply to anything that wasn't in my original industry. I'm a little rusty but I can read over the laws and am confident I can pick it back up quickly.
I've written about the extensively before so I'll be brief: the first company I worked for in the industry racial discriminated against me and customers of the same background (also against LGBTQ+) and the second company was a very toxic environment. There was a lot of drama and fighting, an assistant supervisor was confrontational with me on a daily basis, and the wage was so low I couldn't pay my bills.
One of my best friends who still works in the industry gave me her manager's business card. We talked about it before and she said she'd put in a good word for me. For years I have known this company to have a great reputation, it's family owned, and my friend absolutely loves working there. I know there's no guarantees that I will feel the same way, but it feels more comfortable for me to apply because of this knowledge. However I'm so terrified of actually doing it and making the move. I'm terrified of it not working out and then me disappointed my friend and the company. In a way she's putting her reputation on the line to get me in there and I'm very grateful but it also makes me wonder if I should go somewhere IDK anyone and no one knows me. This also terrifies me because of what has happened in the past.
I have not worked in a good environment or had a job I liked for almost 5 years. At the same time I have an undeniable calling to be in this industry so I know that I'll be excited and eager to dive in, not my usual "just another job" attitude I've had for the past few years. Please help me stop freaking out!! I have self doubt and feel cynical because of what has happened to me in the past! I'm basically at the door but am struggling to open it because I'm expecting something bad on the other side.
Any advice about picking up after being out of the game for a while will be appreciated too.
I've written about the extensively before so I'll be brief: the first company I worked for in the industry racial discriminated against me and customers of the same background (also against LGBTQ+) and the second company was a very toxic environment. There was a lot of drama and fighting, an assistant supervisor was confrontational with me on a daily basis, and the wage was so low I couldn't pay my bills.
One of my best friends who still works in the industry gave me her manager's business card. We talked about it before and she said she'd put in a good word for me. For years I have known this company to have a great reputation, it's family owned, and my friend absolutely loves working there. I know there's no guarantees that I will feel the same way, but it feels more comfortable for me to apply because of this knowledge. However I'm so terrified of actually doing it and making the move. I'm terrified of it not working out and then me disappointed my friend and the company. In a way she's putting her reputation on the line to get me in there and I'm very grateful but it also makes me wonder if I should go somewhere IDK anyone and no one knows me. This also terrifies me because of what has happened in the past.
I have not worked in a good environment or had a job I liked for almost 5 years. At the same time I have an undeniable calling to be in this industry so I know that I'll be excited and eager to dive in, not my usual "just another job" attitude I've had for the past few years. Please help me stop freaking out!! I have self doubt and feel cynical because of what has happened to me in the past! I'm basically at the door but am struggling to open it because I'm expecting something bad on the other side.
Any advice about picking up after being out of the game for a while will be appreciated too.