I'm trying really hard not to take another shot at hitting a vein or two. I've been on my own all weekend as everyone went home for Easter. I couldn't afford to go home. So I've been trying to think of some good but I've got nothing. I've talked myself into maybe asking a girl out but then I realise that I can't. I don't have any money to go on a date. And even if I could get one date, what do I do after that? I have no money, and I get to go home to a couch in my mom's apartment. I'm a huge loser and I just don't have the energy to wait any longer. I tried to get help but it hasn't worked. I just want it to end.