I haven't cut for 3 months, but I feel so horrible tonight... I just want to slash myself to ribbons. I don't even care if I bleed to death. I can hardly stand it. If I cut, my husband will see it and get mad at me, but I just don't know what to do. I just really need some relief. My anxiety is sooooo bad, but I don't even know why. It's not like life is horrible right now, but I have been panicky and depressed really bad today. I'm starting to feel hopeless. I feel like I'll never be able to stop this cutting, and I'll never find happiness in life. My therapist always says to remember that cutting is only a temporary solution, and afterwards I'll feel worse. She's right, that's always true. But right now I think even some temporary relief would help. I feel so alone. I'm ready to give up on everything.