Trying something different

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Aulm, Dec 1, 2013.

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  1. Aulm

    Aulm New Member

    It's the holiday season. I thought I was doing well then after a short discussion and
    an insensitive comment from someone I totally blew up. It's not like I thought I have
    been feeling fine but I did not realize I had this rage still in me. I've been feeling down
    and not well because of the holidays, they bring up a lot of grief. Lost to many people
    in too short of time, many people think I should be getting along by now, but I do struggle
    much more than people realize. It really bothers me when I blow up like I did, honestly
    it also feels kind of good because I feel like I have been able to unleash something. It just
    not the right way to do it. I'm so tired of filtering myself and watching myself so I dont say
    something about my grief, people dont want to hear it and I am just tired I think. After a
    blow up like that I fall into great despair. Dont want to do that either....................just tired of life.
     
  2. emily83

    emily83 Well-Known Member

    i'm sorry.

    hugs...
     
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