ive already told my family i love them more than anything. but it still feels incomplete. all i want is for when its done is for my family to know its not there fault, and that theres nothing they could have done. But how do i get this message across? No matter what i tell them or how much i say i love them there gonna feel upset when im gone. i guess since i joined this site i should give a little background, im 25, a male. Umm my father killed himself when i was 10. i have serious depression, runs in my family. I always knew id kill myself, or figured i would. But only now is it a constant pressure to talk myself out of doing it. A few years ago i got addicted to heroin, to help ease the pain of depression. Now im at the worst point in my life, after 3 years of opiate addiction im going threw the most horrible withdrawal ive ever imagined... and because of a drug charge from 2 years ago in ten days i have to go to do 6 months of jail. all of these things tells me now is the right time. I always figured id do it with a gun, but the problem is im officially a felon now and have no way to get a gun. So whatever i do wont be as quick and easy as i want. I thought about pills for a while but that would be really painful waiting for my liver to die then the rest of me. So i guess hanging is the next best method. I dont wanna ruin my families lives when they find my body, but how do you worry about them and yourself at the same time? if they knew what it was like inside my head they would want me to stop the pain. Even if it means saying goodbye to them forever. I dunno i just dont know anything anymore.