So I found a job and have been working for almost two weeks now. It's kind of stressful, but I don't want to quit it as I did the other couple of jobs I had. I've also been able to avoid drinking for almost two weeks now. To be honest, it's hard as I relied on alcohol during these painful months of deep depression to numb the pain, but I want to try not to depend on it. I ad three years of sobriety at one point...I'm not sure if I can do that again, but I would like to stay sober for as long as I possibly can. Also, I like this girl. I mentioned her in my previous thread. I guess she likes me too, but there is fear of rejection as this is something that has happened to me on numerous occasions over the years. I find myself saying sorry to her a lot. Like sorry for texting her or bothering her. I don't mean to sound so insecure or pathetic, but it's hard not to feel cautious. Anyway, I'm not sure if this made any sense. I still feel depressed and unsure, but just not as deep as I had for the past several months. I just want things to work out for the good, but I'm not sure if that can happen. Sorry for rambling.