☆☆Still Ducking Fantastic ☆☆
Safety & Support
I thought of this while replying to someone else's thread, and instead of going into it to much there I thought I'd just start my own. I realized awhile back that I was spending a lot of energy trying to get rid of suicidal ideation. I had this idea that somehow if I couldn't get rid of it I wasn't enough, I wasn't human enough, I wasn't well enough. It took me awhile, but I came to the realization those thoughts might never go away completely. How is degrading myself and pouring so much into getting rid of them going to help me in the long run? I started trying to learn how to live with them. How do I cope with passive suicidal thoughts? How do I cope in those moments when they are becoming less passive? How can I live? How can I reclaim moments of happiness in the midst of this? I wonder sometimes if we focus too much on the ultimate forever cure.