just came from an emergency meeting
the project from hell that put me on disability last year, the one they took me off of last year, the one i kept telling people was in trouble, the one that i kept saying would fail if it kept going the way it was...big surpise - it's having problems and is supposed to go live with a major client this weekend - problems that are big enough that the sales manager has been told to stop selling the product
now people are begging me to come back to it and help fix it and i keep telling them no
why would i want to go back to a project where all of me input was ignored? or discounted? to a project that was used to destroy me?
i keep trying to tell them i can't do it that i can't risk my health on it but they just don't get it, aren't listening
fortunately none of these people can force me to do this - i don't report to them and they have no power over me
but i'm afraid they'll still won't listen and will to my boss and demand me as the only one who can solve their problems - but i can't - they ignored me and treated my work so poorly that everything i warned them about came true and i can't go back to that i just can't
now i'm freaking out - why don't they just stick a knife in my chest and get it over with
dammit i can't stop shaking - or crying - just want to keep bashing my head on my desk until i'm unconscious
the project from hell that put me on disability last year, the one they took me off of last year, the one i kept telling people was in trouble, the one that i kept saying would fail if it kept going the way it was...big surpise - it's having problems and is supposed to go live with a major client this weekend - problems that are big enough that the sales manager has been told to stop selling the product
now people are begging me to come back to it and help fix it and i keep telling them no
why would i want to go back to a project where all of me input was ignored? or discounted? to a project that was used to destroy me?
i keep trying to tell them i can't do it that i can't risk my health on it but they just don't get it, aren't listening
fortunately none of these people can force me to do this - i don't report to them and they have no power over me
but i'm afraid they'll still won't listen and will to my boss and demand me as the only one who can solve their problems - but i can't - they ignored me and treated my work so poorly that everything i warned them about came true and i can't go back to that i just can't
now i'm freaking out - why don't they just stick a knife in my chest and get it over with
dammit i can't stop shaking - or crying - just want to keep bashing my head on my desk until i'm unconscious