I'm really stuggling to find a point in life anymore. I have a loving family and some nice friends and I feel so awful because the way I feel overpowers the feelings that they should be enough. I can't have anyone touch me, I don't like being around people. There literally is no reason for my existence. I'm at a loss. I have no idea what to do, And the strain on the ties stopping me from ending it all is getting too much.