I'm getting scared of myself. I'm getting very aggressive and have a bad attitude toward other people. I hate people on the street. When I talk to people I think about how I could kill them. I'm making lists of people to kill and think how I could kill the most before someone catches me. Thinking about what would be most fun, mass murder or serial killing. And fantasies about me stabbing, shooting, torturing people and so on. A few years ago I was a nice person who liked horses and cared about people. but now my mind is starting to turn me into an animal... . Has anyone else experienced this dehumanization of oneself? Are you experiencing it now and how do you deal with it? Or have your mind recovered to human thoughts again?