Sorry about the pun-infused title. I'm a writer and in a mood. Either way, I've realized something about myself. No matter how much it sucks to admit, I HAVE become a defeatist. After being repeatedly disappointed, hurt, let down, etc. I expect the absolute worst from everyone and everything. For instance, I have this gallbladder operation coming up and in my head I'm gonna slip into a coma or become permanently disabled as a result. This must end! I've heard that thinking positive is a habit and being grateful is the foundation. I'm going to TRY this... Granted, my track record is terrible. Nevertheless, I need to do something! Anyone have any ideas on this or any other method of staying positive?