Hi. In your last thread I remember you said you were on the waiting list for therapy. Did you ever get into therapy? It's worth holding out - therapy can do wonders for people and can help you overcome these feelings and give you coping mechanisms. As I said last time, it could be POCD rather than you being a pedophile, but even if it isn't, as long as you don't commit any crimes, this doesn't make you a terrible person. And, again, being a pedophile doesn't necessarily mean you will be a sex offender - those terms are not synonymous.