Twitches are driving me INSANE!!

[Woodsmoke]

Bad images (whether imagined or from memory- stupid stuff, sometimes, other times, DISGUSTING) that really disturb me go round and round my head and I end up twitching- tonight my neck keeps twitching to the side, other times it's full body.

I repeat words when I type. I go over them again and again because it 'didn't feel right.'

I can't mix my work/money/health documents with my writing notebooks etc because I think it will 'contaminate' my work with... mundaneness of reality, I suppose. I really, REALLY FEAR this.

Little repeated habits such as rubbing fingers in a certain way.... tapping things a certain number of times.... have to have my ornaments/crockery etc exactly 'lined up.'

You know what I'm getting at. There's more but I can't think of it right now...

Is this OCD? It's been going on in small degrees since I was 16. My doctor didn't even care that I tried to kill myself, so I never bothered to inform him of these things. Now, it's on the increase and I have to do something. I am just so afraid of sounding like a hypochondriac to my doctor...

I LIVE IN FEAR OF EVERY DAMN THING I OR EVERYONE ELSE SAYS!!!

 

[AlopexAngel]

That indeed does sound like OCD. You should talk to a therapist about managing your symptoms. If he doesn't care, try to find one that does. Tc.

 

[Avarice]

I can relate to some of the things you mention here such as the tapping things certain number of times, etc., I know it can get frustrating and have quite a heavy impact on your life.

Like angeliris said, try talking about it to somebody like a therapist or your doctor, and if they won't listen, try a different one. It sounds as though you really need help with this so you should fight to find someone who will be able to offer that.

 

[herenow]

The twitching may be from your meds, better tell your doctor.