Bad images (whether imagined or from memory- stupid stuff, sometimes, other times, DISGUSTING) that really disturb me go round and round my head and I end up twitching- tonight my neck keeps twitching to the side, other times it's full body.
I repeat words when I type. I go over them again and again because it 'didn't feel right.'
I can't mix my work/money/health documents with my writing notebooks etc because I think it will 'contaminate' my work with... mundaneness of reality, I suppose. I really, REALLY FEAR this.
Little repeated habits such as rubbing fingers in a certain way.... tapping things a certain number of times.... have to have my ornaments/crockery etc exactly 'lined up.'
You know what I'm getting at. There's more but I can't think of it right now...
Is this OCD? It's been going on in small degrees since I was 16. My doctor didn't even care that I tried to kill myself, so I never bothered to inform him of these things. Now, it's on the increase and I have to do something. I am just so afraid of sounding like a hypochondriac to my doctor...
I LIVE IN FEAR OF EVERY DAMN THING I OR EVERYONE ELSE SAYS!!!
I repeat words when I type. I go over them again and again because it 'didn't feel right.'
I can't mix my work/money/health documents with my writing notebooks etc because I think it will 'contaminate' my work with... mundaneness of reality, I suppose. I really, REALLY FEAR this.
Little repeated habits such as rubbing fingers in a certain way.... tapping things a certain number of times.... have to have my ornaments/crockery etc exactly 'lined up.'
You know what I'm getting at. There's more but I can't think of it right now...
Is this OCD? It's been going on in small degrees since I was 16. My doctor didn't even care that I tried to kill myself, so I never bothered to inform him of these things. Now, it's on the increase and I have to do something. I am just so afraid of sounding like a hypochondriac to my doctor...
I LIVE IN FEAR OF EVERY DAMN THING I OR EVERYONE ELSE SAYS!!!