I am feeling frustrated and desperate. My two attempts to poison myself in the last fortnight have both failed. I tried ingesting a massive amount of a certain, extremely rare, and reputedly deadly poisonous plant. I reached the stage where I was so weakened by the poison I could barely move, but never reached the next level where you are supposed to fall into a coma and die of resperatory failure. At least it was a fairly safe method, the poison eventually wears off if with no nasty side effects. I guess the plants were just not poisonous enough, and I've now also exhausted the whole stand, so I cannot try again. I just don't know what to do now. I can't think of another peaceful way to die, only more drastic methods like drowning or (if I travel to another country) jumping from a height. I can't face life anymore. When I thought I was going to die, I felt nothing but relief. I don't know what the point of making a post here is. I'm not meaning to discuss methods -- I've tried to keep it all pretty vague. But I've told no-one about what is happening with me, and I wanted to get it off my chest.