LETTER ONE To her, I wish you knew how i felt. These emotions are killing me. I have felt like utter crap for so many years, and you came along and saved me, and made me get help. But then you split up with me because you couldn't handle all this stuff I am going through. You don't understand how much these words hurt me. You were the only one who understood me, who was here for me. I know we are friends now, and it feels so good we can be close, but I know in my heart I still love you. To see you smiling makes life worth living, seeing you happy is all I want. When we hug, I wish I could hold on forever. When I see you, I have to hold myself back from kissing you, because thats what feels so right to do. I know we have something special, I know you can feel it too. I wish I could have been all that you wanted. I wish you could see your real friends. It hurts me so much to see her hurt you, and yet you cave in and let her continue to walk all over you. I know this is selfish, but I wish you could see how much good I do for you, how I would give my soul for you. She doesnt even deserve to know you!! I dont know if I can continue being around you. My smiles are geniune with you, but there is a hidden message behind them. I want you. Yet I know it wouldnt work again. I'm just stuck. I wish you were here. My heart aches knowing I was not good enough. Love you always. LETTER TWO To myself, You are totally useless. You try to be nice but no one likes you and no one appreciates you, so why dont you just fuck off and die??? Seriously, what is keeping you going? You are fat, useless, lonely, ugly, dumb...you have nothing to offer the world. JUST FUCK OFF. Cut yourself, just keep cutting yourself. Carve those words into you, you can try and cut out all the hate, but it will always remain, there is no point in trying to fight it. You know you can not handle this pain inside anymore. How sick you feel whenever you realise how you will never been wanted. Who would want you? Your body is fucked up with scars, you are paranoid, and are fucking psychotic!! Just go. what are you waiting for? You can press that blade abit further cant you? I know you can feel the time is approaching for you to leave. You try to grasp onto something to keep you here, but deep down you know it is fake. Just go. Everyone hates you. You hate yourself. Hate isnt what this world needs. so go. do everyone a favour.