I believe I was about 3-5 when I was first sexually harassed by someone that was around 17. Of course, I didn't know what was going on, I was so little. He started to move his hands up my shorts while we were playing on the teeter-totter in the front lawn. We were relly good friends, but my dad was inside the house, watching from the window, and immiediatly called me into the house, then called the police. I talked to the officer, and my 'friend' I think was brought to jail. This case when I was around 9, I forgot how old the guy was. This one was almost rape too, clothes off and everything. The whole time that happened is vague, and I don't want to explain it all... It pains me so much to even write this.. All these emotions locked up inside... I have only told 4 people, my parents and family forgot, but not me.. No, not ever would I forget. Whenever I talk to my science teacher, I look down at the table. It's hard for me to look into men's eyes. I just want to run out of the classroom when our eyes meet. I have a terrible fear of men, it's starting to take over my life. I also don't like to eat in front of people (lunch), and I am not much of a breakfast person. My friend, she says she will tell Mr. Klimas that I am not eating lunch, which worries me even more. Then i'll be put through a lecture of why I should eat. I sometimes get depressed and think no one cares anymore, and cut myself. So many emotions.. So many problems.. Yet, It's hard for me to talk to anyone. I feel like I don't have any friends anymore... All help greatly appreciated!