So many mistakes. Little things, every day. Sure I can think of them as Another Fucking Learning Experience, but the stakes are higher than people want you to think. Example: I made several mistakes recently on job proposals. The results: 1) I'm not getting paid nearly enough for the time I'm putting in, 2) The client is upset because I look unprofessional or greedy because they've requested something that will cost more money. 3) When the client is unhappy, I lose their confidence. Then they don't talk about me with others, and they won't use me again. 4) I'm pretty skilled at making the client happy, but there's only so much I can do, but I spend time fixing things and placating the client. That MISTAKE I made just makes me spend even more time and now the OTHER client projects are suffering! My rant is that I refuse to except how hard life is. It shouldn't be this hard!!! That the slightest misstep or misspeak means I might lose a project, then there's not enough money and my card-house-of-almost-surviving falls apart the rest of the way. Things -- the economy, working -- should not be so unflinchingly impossible. Many of us are perfectionist... but goddammit, you HAVE to be, just to squeak by!! As individual people, we learn early to be gracious about mistakes. We all make mistakes. But as a society, as an economic system, there is NO graciousness. Oh, places want to look gracious, they'll have policies. But that's not how people act -- at all -- when they have their "business" hat on. Because EVERYONE is fighting to hang on to what they have. Geezus what a way to live. I do NOT Accept this!!