i hate myself. i talk to people and help them stop cutting. i do what i can to help others. but i still cant stop myself. im a fucking failure. i hate me. i hate what i am. i hate what i represent. i hate everything about ME. i was doing good. about a month without cutting and then i was watching a movie the other day and got triggered and cut. then today i was talking with someone and got triggered. i cut again today. my arms are so scarred and deep. theyll never heal. i hate what i have become.