Prenote: sorry for spelling or autocorrect if it is poor I'm do tired of everything... My mom and I are Fighting again.... I feel so alone... I am SIing again and am having to try hard not to tonight... I don't know that I will suceed... I'm suicidal and am having nightmares again... I feel so lone because I am losing everyone... I have few friends on sf and Almost no friends in rl. The couple I have my mom is fucking jealous of. It's like I cannot do right!!! About ready to just break down and give up... There is little reason not to.