I just had an episode. I had an argument with my boyfriend, and I got so mad... I started wheezing and lost my voice. I couldn't breath or calm down and I couldn't stop crying. I have never felt so insanely out of control. :sad: I couldn't stop,I punched my head so much, I still couldnt breath so I punched my face. I'm black and blue and sore but nothing. I couldn't breathe or calm down, so I grabbed the blade and started cutting my thighs and calves. So many ridiculous cuts.. Why!? My god, did I start breathing slowly but surely as soon as I did that? I hate that. I'm so disappointed, because I haven't in some time. I was glad to see I haven't needed to. I'm so sorry... Just apologizing to myself a few days ago I guess. I'm so pathetic.