My new form of self harm I suppose. Along with the rest. I'll eat the same amount I always do. I throw it all up when I realise how horrible it feels to have a full stomach. I hate throwing up. But it seems as if there's no other way. I know how stupid that sounds. Of course there's another way. I'm a healthy weight, I do enough exercise, but I can't make myself keep my food down. It disgusts me that I'm loading all those calories into me and not doing anything to get them out again. Stupid. I should just stop eating. Disappear..